M a y b e w o r d s

People say
To be happy in life
you need to chase your dreams
It’s impossible for me
I only have nightmares…

Your wedding
I was there
Don’t remember getting an invite
It was beautiful
Pretty houses
Near the lake
Benches
Lovely pink and white flowers on the grass
Magic freedom music played in the background
You were there
You looked breathtaking
You greeted my eyes with a smile
I felt true happiness for you
Can’t imagine anything better
Than knowing that you’re happy
I wandered on
Searching for the man in the finest clothes to congratulate
Found him
A very good guy
Seemed kind
Down to earth
Good connections
Rich family
And he didn’t look that bad
He did not know who I was
Probably was for the best
People gathered around you
Sitting on summery benches
Awaiting the incoming special moment
Each and everyone
In fancy clothes
I went towards you
To congratulate
Hey
You look amazing in that dress
I couldn’t stop smiling
You couldn’t stop smiling
-Thank you!
A friend hands over a cigarette to you and lights it
I thought to myself
You never smoked before
And I didn’t say more than
It’s not good for you
In a happy and careless way
I did not want to act like I was your father
You looked ashamed
Coughed and threw it away
Looked at me and smiled
-Help me up please?
I took her warm and comforting hands and lifted her up from her seat
Her wedding gown
Had just broken a wall of feelings
As She spoke the words
-Dance with me
Stunned I asked myself
What is She thinking!?
Eeem… I don’t think you’re future husband would approve
-Just dance with me
I couldn’t say no to your face
Not with that angel smile of yours
Those soul tearing eyes
I suddenly didn’t care much about the others
I had you close to me
In my arms
It was an honor
I smelled your neck
You still used the perfume that you knew I loved
It doesn’t exist anymore
Island Kiss
Goose bumps
I felt alive again
You leaned your head closer to mine
Your eyes and lips searched mine
Are you crazy?
As much as I wanted to fulfill your request
I didn’t want to get you in trouble
And I didn’t want to get killed
You whispered
-Kiss me
I kissed
It lasted a while
We stopped
We kissed more intensely!

Everything stopped…

The wind
The music
The feelings
I woke up…

More empty than ever…

Washing dishes
Wishing wishes
Wiping plates
TVs on
Lights are on
Mind is off
Off the charts
Filled with wishes
Why am I standing here everyday?
Someone has to do it
Stand here and wish for better things

I don’t care
Been having a daymare
Where some things are wrong in the atmosphere
Saw it with my own eyes, I saw it with fear
Heard people yelling
The end is near!
Tear after tear
Was too horrifying to be real
Was too real to be a nightmare
Violence
My heart was silenced
Silenced by screams
Damaged by two teams
Harm and pain!
It was insane
Blood everywhere
In my Daymare

Invisible
Ghostly shape
The rest of me live in a far away place
Where faith and emotions still exist
Fellow creatures passing thru me
The hollow
They follow the stream
This dream
Ethereal
No!
I just don’t get attention

The force of one turn is learned
Everything is in your hands, fingertips, heart and soul
Scratching the cds with your left hand, changing tracks with the right one

Music is a part of you
You are music

Standing in front of a couple of thousand people
Silencing their screams
The base that you’ve create beats hard in your audience hearts
As the rush comes

Have you ever been on the borderline of rain and clear weather?

The weather it changes

My mood it changes

People around changes

Changes changes

Aim

And

Shoot

Before your target changes

I sign this I sign that

I sign this I sign that

Give me the signers hat

Where the hell is my designers at?

I thought that came with the fame

Came with a name

That I’ve built stone by stone

Piece by peace

For the record

As I train, I jump on the train

On the road to fitness with god as my witness

On board of that train, I’m trying to build and maintain

Grow and remain sane

Live and forget the pain

Dont know where its headed

All mental