M a y b e w o r d s

Why bother to pray
Why bother listen to what wise men say
Why bother wait to open gifts until christmas day
Why bother feeling sorry for aunt May
Why bother ordering a new car, If you can’t pay
Why bother begging Her to stay
She’s gonna leave you anyway

I’ve always been and will probably remain
Depressed
My thin shell
Filled with anxiety
-You must find joy in the small things in your life
Too bad the small things are hidden
In large, dark woods…

So horrible to witness
A innocent child
Takes the consequences
Of foolish and heartless adults
How can they ever.. EVER!! forgive themselves
A mare baby
Having her father leaving her
And with no father figure to protect her
Cancer sneaks up to her
And grabs her
At the age of three…
This is really fucking concerning me
It shouldn’t be
A secret from the rest of the family

I need someone
To talk to
A shoulder to cry on
I don’t have anyone
I have to pay people
For them to speak with me
Atleast
Act like they care
Therapists
Hobos
Strangers to my miserable life
Doesn’t feel good…
But I have no choice

I stood in the shower
And cried
In my head theres only
God I almost died!
In water my tears I hide…

I know drinking half of a bottle
In half of a second
Is wrong
I had just forgot it at the moment
Now I got a memory
A whole Absolute Vodka Pear
Has strucked me with fear
As I now see death
In every corner…

God…
The doctors told me
That I have a disease
Called cancer
-Do you want me to cure you?
Only if my life has a purpose…

Have time not being afraid of specters
Continue each day every life making the best of it
Don’t have time to waste on sitting around
Think about that asthma that doesn’t exist
Cant run forever
They’ll haunt you
They hunt you
Keep stability between fear and calm
As ghosts hunt you
Do what’s important
A ghost doesn’t run after you
It has an eternity to take you down
No stress

By the time you read this

I’m dead

I didn’t commit suicide…

Life killed me

Hope your satisfied

Life…

The only killer

I’ve become a mad man
Dont know who or what to blame
I’m A MAD MAN!
A MAD MAN!!
MAD MAN… I’am
Speak and reason with me
Wont work
Cuz I ain’t here
Put a gun to my head
I won’t care
Just my ugly grin
Evil sad eyes
No point anymore
The only thing keeping me from cutting my own troath
Is an old oath
I once made to God
That I’m beginning to forget

Hey you!
Lying on the floor
Lying there lying
Lying your tongue off
Dying there dying
Dear dying
Dear dying person
I can’t fix you
I don’t want to
Regret you will if you don’t already
Can’t look you in the eyes
Can’t see a thing except tears and a stranger
Not the one I once knew
It’s too late to apologize
Lying there regretting