M a y b e w o r d s

So horrible to witness
A innocent child
Takes the consequences
Of foolish and heartless adults
How can they ever.. EVER!! forgive themselves
A mare baby
Having her father leaving her
And with no father figure to protect her
Cancer sneaks up to her
And grabs her
At the age of three…
This is really fucking concerning me
It shouldn’t be
A secret from the rest of the family

I don’t wanna think about it

Horrible moments

Had to look into the eyes

Of the love of my life

And leave her

The final hour

Tossed out my heart on wet asphalt

Looking back against the room where I left her crying

Looking back against the red house

A house I never again can enter

I had to do this

Did I make the right decision?

Looking back again

Seeing her

Sneaking behind me with small steps

Wet from the rain

Wet from her eyes

Coming against me

I can’t resist

Grabbing her

Holding her

Squeezing her like one of us is dieing
Leaving forever
Looking at her from the bus window
Stone cold

Stone dead

My heart is rotting somewhere on the ground

Will I regret?

That’s what I didn’t know